Finding friends in the most unexpected ways is probably one of the best feelings. In the beginning of the school year, I never expected to make as big of a variety of friends as I have today. I have to say I’m blessed, and I’m happy to say I honestly hope I don’t drift from any of them. 

I’m so stressed right now. I need to learn how to manage my time and stop being distracted by the littlest things. I need to learn how to sit down and just finish everything I need to do. Ughhh, I need someone to talk to right now.

If I chose, it would’ve been Toffee or Pandora hahah. But Nala’s fine too!

My face looks so young omggg. I hate it.

I feel like I have to keep up with a mirage. I’m so tired.

Had the weirdest nightmare. 

I was sitting in english, and I was waiting for the clock to let me out of class.

Then I yelled out “Only 3 more weeks left! Thank the lord jesus!”

Then she looked at me, and slid down from the tree she was giving a lecture in.

She told me I was never getting out of school.

Holy fuck.

But then I woke up lol.

Ughh. For fuck sake. I really wish I went last night, it’s just stupid shit came up. Ugh. What the fuck. I hate drama so much. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

The thing that’s stopping me from doing a lot of the things I actually want to do is judgement. I know I always say to “not care what people think, just do it if you want to”, but it’s hard if you’re starting something new with a group of people who know exactly what they’re doing, because they’ve been doing it for years. I’d rather do things on my own, or with someone I know I can trust or won’t laugh if I do something wrong. Now I’m so used to doing everything on my own, or being off on my own island surrounded by clusters of people. I can’t find somewhere to fit in anymore. Whatever. Judgement day is everyday. 

I hate drifting away from people I care about.

It’s like… what happened? I’m over here trying to make an effort, and just ugh. This is all too fucking much.